Day by Day...

Day be day, I learn to grow...to move away and let go...
Day by day, I see around and know...
I should have not loved you like I did...
I should have just been at peace with myself...
Now I seek closure after suffering for so long
And the same question stares on my way along
Is it even possible to forget the pain
That was all I had of you
I wish I could ever say again
I love you...I so do...

Then and Now

Then...
How many times I said 'I love you' and you looked away...
How many times I wanted to be with you and you did not stay...
How many times I asked for a hug and you pushed me away...
How many times I expected your sympathy and you didn't care...
How many times I thought you'd call me weak so I held my tears...
How many times you hurt me by saying love wasn't there...

Now...
I can live my life on my own; being alone is a blessing
I treasure my happiness and have my own dreams
If you ask me, I will never feel the same
I am over you and only you are to blame
You lost someone who loved you like mad
If you see, it's not all that bad
I have my goals and my future
All you have is...yourself

Feeling Sad...

As I cry softly into the

darkness of this night

Tears rolling down my cheeks

dreams drifting away from my eyes...

Darkness all around

destroying peace and beauty

Devouring emotions inside

leaving emptiness within...

I scream in my mind...

Is this what it means

to be at the bottom?

Is this how it feels

not to be loved by anyone?

Hold me, hug me tight

Love me, wipe my tears

Give me a reason to smile

I have been sorrowful for a while...

Time slipping by

horizon's far away

Waiting for the spark of light

to brighten my day...