Can't share the pain

You ask me to share what I feel
But this pain my heart can’t reveal
May be I want to feel the pain
May be I wish to let it remain
Inside me, where it belongs
It makes me strong to carry on
It gives me a reason to be alive
If I let it go, how will I survive?

 

It helps me understand
My purpose, my calling
It gives me a reason
To fight against falling
Into the darkness
Rendering my life useless.

 

It is, thus, my pain
That makes me what I am
Don’t ask me to share
Don’t tell me you care
There is no other lie greater
To say you love me and leave later.

 

I know you will not stay
You will go away
Like everyone I trusted
Live everyone I loved
So leave me alone
And just be gone
On your own way
Far, far, far away.